Faces from the past 05/20/2008
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The other day I ran into someone I kinda knew in high school. By kinda knew, I mean that he had to remind me of his name, and then I only remembered that he went to my high school. After a few minutes of idle chit chat, we went on our ways and I thought to myself, “yikes.” And I realized that I never run into people I was actually friends with in high school. I run into people I only know by name, or people I hated, or people I might have taken a class with but don’t remember. It could be that I don’t really keep up with anyone I went to high school with, or that the majority of the people I went to high school with have left the area, but I only run into those kinds of people. And I never notice them. But they always know me by face. Don’t ask me why, I guess I was memorable in high school. It’d be easier to talk to them if I had more to tell them when they ask me the proverbial, “what’s going on?” But I digress, which is what I normally do.
On another note, I realized that there are pretty much only 2 people who read this, so hello to you both. Its actually kinda freeing to know that I don’t have to impress anyone with my writing.
The times they are a changin’… 05/14/2008
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but Ron Burgundy had never heard that song. Come to think of it, I don’t think I have either.
My life has changed a lot over the last few years. Even without the whole graduation/unemployment thing, life has kind of been in this upheaval of discovery recently. And you know what, its been a lot of fun. I really hope that this continues into the foreseeable future. Stu remarked today that my musical tastes have changed dramatically, and he’s right. Part of that is hanging out with some people more who have expanded my musical horizons, and part of it is that I’ve been more open personally. I’ve gotten involved with a new church where I am only beginning to know more than 4 or 5 people in the whole place. At the same time I got re-involved with the youth at Grace, and that’s probably gonna go some interesting places before its done. I guess what I’m trying to say is that I hope that I don’t ever stop discovering new things about this crazy journey I’m on, and that I take the time to appreciate the new things (and the old) when I am afforded it.
Addendum: I just realized that I have these days about as often as I have the outwardly frustrating days that spawned the last post. Serenity is a strange thing, and it must come from God because I can not imagine how I came to feel this way.
Some are born it, some achieve it, and some have it thrust upon them. 05/12/2008
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Ah, Shakespeare, you are so wise.
One year ago today I graduated from college. I figured that it might be worth writing about, so here I am. Also, I feel like writing about something for the first time in a while. For those of you who care, I had a xanga that is still up, read it if you dare, but I digress.
366 days ago (leap year), I walked out of the doors of North Texas and figured it’d take me somewhere around the length of the summer to find a job. I also knew I was a lazy tool, so I figured recruiters were the way to go. So over the next 4 months I talked to 6 of them, and got nowhere. I think I got a max of 1 interview (maybe 2) out of any of them. So that’s that. Then I loafed around for the next few months trying to do it on my own. No luck. So I worked for Pat for the Christmas season. Then over the spring I tried to go the temp route. Administrative assistant isn’t for me, that’s useful knowledge, but I’m pretty sure I already knew it.
Now that you have all the back story, on to the commentary.
Since I was in high school, I have had this inkling that whatever I ended up doing would be grand in scale. Dunno where it came from (well I have an idea, but that’s for another post), but I have always felt that, for lack of a more applicable phrase, I was destined for greatness. And that hasn’t happened. So maybe I’m delusional, or maybe I’m just not there yet, or maybe something I haven’t seen is going on. Or all of the above. Harrumph! (that word was in the the microsoft dictionary, I can’t tell you how cool that is). The point is, something is rotten in the state of Denmark. Apparently. But I’m not in Denmark, so I wouldn’t know. The thing that irks me the most is that I still don’t have any idea what I want to do with the next 12 months, never mind the rest of my life. There are an infinite number of jobs that I have no interest in doing, and even more that I might be interested in but am in no way qualified to do. Again I say harrumph!
So, that’s where I am. Maybe in some future post I’ll expound upon it, or some other aspect of my life, but I’m pretty sure my love of irreverence will take over at some point and this little corner of the universe will descend into bedlam. Also, this really just venting, don’t feel as though you have to respond. Advice is welcome, but now that there’s a good chance I’m going to ignore it because I am stubborn and lazy and really really don’t want to end up doing something I hate, even for a day.
P.S. The titular (hehe) “it” is greatness. From Shakespeare’s Twelfth Night.
