Shame 07/01/2010
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I have “written” the post I spoke of before my birthday about 3 times in my head now, and about 1.5 times on paper. The problem with all these early drafts, is that while they speak very deeply about who I am and what I am going through, I refuse to whine about my life the the void if the internet. Seems shallow and ridiculous, to be honest. Also, a great many of my words would be very hurtful to one person who has mattered a great deal to me, and I do not feel as though causing that hurt would be worth having said the words. So I am lead to this; a post made from my actions and thoughts of the past few days, and how my thinking has changed.
I went to see Eclipse with Josh today. Yes, a 26 year old and his friend, the 30something youth director he volunteers with, went to see a movie about a teenager who falls in love with a vampire. We laughed about it when Josh suggested it, but ended up going anyway and really enjoyed it.* But it got me thinking about popular conventions, and about how people fear to live their lives in the way they wish because of what others think. Suddenly, I don’t care. I don’t care that you think Twilight is stupid, and I don’t care that you think video games are rotting the brains of America’s youth, or that you think less of me for enjoying them both. I just don’t. I’m tired of making decisions afraid of how they will be perceived. So I’m not going to worry about it anymore. That doesn’t mean your opinion isn’t valuable, just that I’m not going to let it influence mine. So there!
Just so it’s out there, I’m totally Team Edward. Jacob is cool and all, but he is just way too whiny.
Never be scared to do something because of how it might be perceived. Otherwise, you’ll be living a life of regret.
I think I just made that up. But it sounds lovely.
Too whiny, indeed. I almost couldn’t make it through the book that tells some of the story from Jacob’s perspective.